Patterns, Lessons & Triggers

This card reminds me that it is going to happen. I’m going to be the one laughing. I’m going to be one laughed at. That’s right. I’ll be both the Fool and the one yelling, “NO STOP” or “Oh hell no.”

Yesterday, someone triggered my “OH HELLLLLL NO” response. They said that liars were always liars and cheaters were always cheaters.

I thought about that for a nanosecond, then responded with my thoughts. Here is what I said.

What I’ve learned is that people can change but I had to change first. The patterns in my own relationships were due to my choices. Not one of them said I had to be with them or else.

I chose them.

Once I identified my bad choices, I was able to take responsibility for my own actions.

Once I took responsibility for my own actions, I was able to make different choices.

Once I made better choices, I was able to have relationships that, even when ended, were left to the mellow notes of friendship rather than the bitter dregs of “they hurt me”.

For me, it’s been my choice all along. Once I realized that, it was a different world.

That was all I said. And I realized how far I’ve come. I have made different choices based on recognized patterns. Wow. I guess my Fool’s Journey has really carried me down the road a piece.

Where does your Fool’s Journey take you? When you look back, what patterns do you see. When you look ahead, can you see the threads weaving together in a new, vibrant pattern or are you walking the same ones? Do you need to make different choices? Or have you already learned the lesson it took me a while to really grok?

Seek joy, y’all. Pass it on.

Fool, American Obscura, self-published (available)

Freaks, Alphas & Hunters

So when you are considering love and lovers and partnerships and relationships and worships and any ol’ kind of ship…keep in mind that the captain of your ship is a freak.

Today’s card is a reminder that sometimes love can be a freak show. And I’m okay with that. Are you? Even though I’m a romance writer (Marilu Mann), I know that not all heroes are buff-bodied, danger-seeking alphas. I know that not all heroines are lithe, leather-clad, pistol-toting hunters.

Often the hero and heroine both belong in some side show. Or so we think. It’s that attitude that can trip us up. We may struggle to tame our inner freak in order to love the wrong freak. Note: I think we are all freaks to someone. And that’s a good thing.

The first person we have to love in our personal freak show is ourselves. We are most likely the freakiest of the bunch to ourselves because know one knows us better than we do.

RIGHT?

So when you are considering love and lovers and partnerships and relationships and worships and any ol’ kind of ship…keep in mind that the captain of your ship is a freak. Love that freak. And, as we say here in Austin, let your freak flag fly!

Lovers, American Obscura Tarot by Misha Huntting, 2011

Seek Joy, Y’all. Pass it on.

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REVIEW: American Obscura Tarot

So what is your take on this deck? Love it? Hate it? Repelled or compelled? I love the unflinching look at our own gothic heritage. I hope others will buy this deck. I’d love to discuss it with you.

American Obscura Tarot
Misha Huntting
Self-Published
Etsy Link

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