This card makes me a bit uncomfortable. It’s a very different interpretation of this Major Arcana, isn’t it. that Eagle flying in makes me think of Prometheus’s punishment. Then the Rebel himself with his rainbow hair and rainbow cloak…or is that some feathered serpent? At his feet there is a chain with broken links. He could get up if he wanted to.
But he doesn’t. This Emperor, from the Osho Zen Tarot, has chosen to stay where he is. He’s almost growing into the place where he sits, isn’t he. I find that this is an Emperor that holds true for me.
And like this Emperor, I’ve made choices about the responsibilities I accept. Once accepted, it’s damned hard to put them down. This may be why I’m disinclined to become close friends with anyone who doesn’t demonstrate their own need to be self-responsible. Playing the blame game is something I used to excel at.
I mean I was really good. It was never my fault that I didn’t have enough money to pay the phone bill. I wasn’t the reason my car suddenly stopped running–I mean who knew you had to do routine maintenance, right? And work? Well let’s just say that I came a cat’s whisker away from getting fired at more than one job due to absenteeism. What? I’m supposed to show up and do my job or you won’t pay me? THE NERVE.
Now that I’ve wrestled that demon down, I can spot her in others really easily. And I don’t want to add their chains to mine. So I don’t forge deep friendships with folks until I’ve learned if they are the type to admit culpability (isn’t that just a great word to say?). Taking ownership is very attractive to me.
What about you? It’s difficult to own up to our own stuff, isn’t it? It’s hard to say “choices I made led me to this situation.”
But you know what? It’s not hard once you do it the first few times. 😀 So try it, if you are in that boat. Free yourself from the chains you don’t need. Keep only the ones that you knowingly commit to. It’s in your hands.
Let’s be fire-bringers to our own piles of crap and burn them out.
Seek joy, y’all. Pass it on!
Rebel (Emperor), Osho Zen Tarot, St. Martin’s Press, 1994
P.S. Trivia: Do you know why this deck is sometimes referred to as the Salmonella Tarot?