Oh it gets even better! That Irish, no Scottish witch I talked about yesterday? LOL Now they say they are French too! Yep… Gaulish roots they say. I asked them about their ethnic switch on the group and they corrected themselves yet again. Just cracks me up to see them do that! Others on the group are noticing as well. Teehee. Gotta love YahooClubs… really attracts the twits!
So last night was unpleasant but D and I had it out somewhat. She is still doing the martyr act but I told her again that it doesn’t serve her. She says it is what she knows. I told her to figure out a better way. M had a holy come-apart and I think it was for the good actually.
He and I made love afterwards and that helped me. I was having a nasty bout of self-doubt. All better this morning though. Now to figure out what to do about D. She says she doesn’t know if she even wants to try to work on things in the family. I know that upsets M and it upsets me as well. I hate being lied too and I feel that is what she has done for nearly a year and a half now.
How can I trust her? I have to learn how to forgive her and mean it. Forgiveness is a hard thing to do. I can get over people… there is a way to just put people out of your life that works for me really well normally. I don’t think I can just put D out of my life. She is part of my family whether she likes it or not.
So, I start today. I try to change my language since apparently she assumes everything I say is to be a bitch. I assume everything she says is to be sullen and martyrish so I guess we are on the same page there.
The biggest bump on my personal road. I can get over this because I can get over anything. I think D has gotten worse since she chose to boot K out of her life. That was her choice not mine yet I am punished for it as is M. Sigh! Life never gives you easy knots to untangle,does She. 😉