Tonight was not good. In fact, it sucked with teeth. Our little freaking airing out session turned into let’s tell Arwen what is wrong with her and why we are so afraid of her.
Well fucking Boo.
I have been honest and upfront. Now I find out one person has been fucking scared of me for a year when I thought she loved me. Stupid me. Guess I need to stop thinking. Find out the other person has been pulling the poor pitiful me and making me out to be the bad guy.
Fucking Boo again.
My whole goddamned world is turned upside down and while I am upside down under water I get attacked. What a wonderful world.
Where have all my dreams gone.
Why do they lie and say they love me
Why do they lie and say they want me.
Where have all my dreams gone?
The one person who wants me
Wants me changed. Wants me to love this new person.
Where have all my dreams gone?
Why can’t I hold on to just one
Just one dream of my own.
Where have all my dreams gone…
5/28/2001 10:39 pm
Mood is lousy.