Okay. I know this card right now. I have been feeling this energy for the better part of a week. I’m totally blaming it on Mercury Retrograde too. Just so you know. I blame a lot on Merc Rx. Mercury is my rising sign’s ruler. I get all combustible during this time. Or rather, the entire world turns stupid on me. So when I pulled today’s card I was not surprised.
The Five of Fire in the Gaian Tarot shows a flame eater spitting flames out in a roaring blaze of incideary fury. Flames billow and burn at the upper right edge. He is red and small in the lower left corner. YOu can see the liquid the flame eaters use spewing from his mouth.
Let me pause for a moment to express an Arwen pet peeve. I hate spitting. I think it is one of the most loathsome, disgusting things a person can do in public. People who spit where other people walk or sit are uncaring, unthinking, unfeeling boors. I do not want your bodily fluids on me so could you contain your mouth until you are near a trashcan at the very least?
SHUDDER
It’s truly one of those things that can make me instantly nauseous. Honest to Gods, I can’t even stand it when I spit in the sink after brushing my teeth. Grosses me out.
Okay. So. Now that you know about that, let’s go back to today’s card, shall we? 🙂 This card makes me think of my own inclination to burn bridges out before I ever reach them. In my past, I’ve had a well-earned reputation on the internet of being a flame-thrower. I would lay waste verbally to perceived opponents. I would fire off emails detailing their faults, flaws and possible error in even breathing. I was, to put it mildly, a righteous mean-spirited evil bitch.
I’ve left that person behind for the most part. Still there are times, like now, when the whole world turns stupid. This is a testing period for me to see if I can leave that flame-eater self behind. I think that is what this card is reminding me of. If I am going to spit and spew, I need to wait until there is a trashcan at the very least.
Because, in the long run, I need to play by my own rules. I if I don’t want you (generic) spitting where I walk, I’d better not be spitting where you read.
Book says: “I courageously face my fears.”
Ugh. Thanks, Joanna. I know this fear far too well. It’s the fear of me flaming out and losing myself as well as friends. At least now I know the triggers that set me off the most. I avoid certain areas and topics when I’m feeling this “need to flame”.
This week is also a very urgent week for me. I have to plan for the Romantic Times convention that is happening in Columbus, OH next week. I will be driving up with my writing partner and best friend, Cai. Driving takes far more planning than just flying in. I also have to keep moving forward on my workshop lessons. Need to get those nailed down. The class itself only has a few seats left at this time. It’s going to be five weeks of fun and I’m really excited about working with everyone.
Have a great Monday, y’all. Remember to allow joy or avoid fear at the very least.
EDITED TO ADD: I’ve just learned that a lovely Colorado priestess has passed to the Summerland. Her husband, Alan, just sent me the news. Elspeth Sapphire was an amazing woman. She spent many a Sunday at my home when I lived in Denver and was a valued member of our open Circles there. Her energy was the kind that wrapped around you. If she loved you, you knew it. No ifs, ands or buts.
And I loved her. Those that know me in R/T have probably seen me in one of her creations. She made my various crocheted shawls and tunic vest. I used to preview what she was making so I could put my name on it before it ever hit the market.
My wand was made by her other partner, Ghost, and blessed by Elspeth.
She touched my life is so many ways that it is difficult to enumerate them.
May her family (Alan, Ghost and the kids) be blessed with the peace of knowing that she is finally free of this earth and all the illness she had to suffer from.
I love you, Elspeth. Merry we met and merry we shall part and merry we will most definitely meet again.
Arwen Nightstar
wow – i unfortunately had to witness a spitting experience today in the grocery store lot. i thought the guy was getting sick, but no, he was JUST spitting. i wanted to tell him off. arwen, we are of like minds on this! joy back to you, friend. t