Today’s card is from a brand-new deck that is making quite a stir in the Tarot world. And this random draw today made me smile even though the card’s message is not the most appealing.
You see, I’m writing a story that features one of the Erinye. That Erinye happens to be Destruction who is pictured here. The key words are very apropos to my story as well.
“Endure it or end it.”
How often have you found yourself in a situation where you are not content? Where it seems as if everything is conspiring against you?
What did you do?
Did you endure it complete with venting to friends so you didn’t blow your top?
Did you end it so you could get on with the job of being happy?
In the card’s background, there ten figures in various aspects of suffering. The Goddess wields her whip (an important tool for this particular Goddess in my fiction as well) as she moves forward. She pays no attention to the suffering around her. She’s moving on.
When you are in a craptastic situation, it can be very hard to get out. I know. I was in an abusive relationship for five years. Five long years where I had to move from thinking it was my fault to understanding that it was that person’s inability to process their own anger. I had allowed myself to be her emotional punching bag (and physical nearer the end). So I also had to deal with my own acceptance. In a way, it was similar to Elizabeth Kubler-Ross’s five stages of dying.
And it took a long time to end it even after I was out of it.
It’s a tough call from this card.
Endure it or end it.
So let’s take that as our journal prompt today.
“What situation am I enduring when I should be ending it?”
10 of Air, Dark Goddess Tarot, Arnell’s Art, 2013
Gosh, this hits home. Sometimes a situation you endure can feel safe at the same time. You know what you have; you don’t know what will happen if you end it. And you always hope for a change even though you know better. Thanks for this post
It took me eight years to get out of a relationship that just didn’t make me happy. It wasn’t abusive in any way, I just always felt unhappy. Told myself, maybe if we live somewhere different, maybe if I do something different. Turns out, it was just the relationship. Ending it was hard, but I finally allowed myself to hear spirit on that one – with a dream about doing the recycling 😀 Powerful post, Arwen!
Thank you, Chloe! Nice to hear that validation from someone else!
🙂