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#affirmation Here’s to growth. It ain’t easy. Some times it ain’t pretty. Often you turn up with grubby finger nails, stained knees and dirt on your face.
A lot of what I do on a personal level feels like shoveling shit. Surprised to hear me say that? Well, bear with me.
I am moody. I can be a bitch. I can snark with the best of them. My Scorpio moon says I can out snark most.
I don’t like that self. I like the self who is cheerful. Who laughs more than she cries. Who makes seeking joy a priority.
Even when I have to fight up from all the shit I pile on top of myself.
Shit: I am not joyful enough.
Shit: I am not skinny enough.
Shit: I am too angry.
Shit: I am too mean.
It’s all shit I shovel. And the target? Me myself and I.
But, like that donkey in that old joke, I have to keep shaking that shit off. I have to use it as material for growth. I have to burst forth stretching for the sky.
I have to grow. Grubby fingernails and all, I have to keep growing.
Today’s affirmation is:
I grow because I need to grow. I grow because I want to grow. I grow because it is the only alternative I can live with. Loved and loving, I love each of you. Seek joy, y’all. Pass it on!
Tarot of the Trees, Dana Driscoll, self-published